Poems
NW on Nov 17th 2008
- You Make Me Want To Die
- Time Heals All
- Nightmares In My Mind
- Memory
- Will You Leave?
- Sweet Dreams
- Until I Die
- Serpent Inside of Me
- A Part of Me
- His Love
- Without You
- Left Behind
- America the Witch
- Fear
- You Go
- My Friend Pain
- Secrets
reaching out
for you
but no ones there
left here
to linger
in silence
waiting for you
to come along
I cry
force me to
become strong
without you
it’s the beginning
of the end
hold on to your heart
to heavy to
hold
force you to
be cold
tear apart these ties
that bind
it will all
get better
in time
I look across the blood red sea
Soon, I know, darkness will be covering me
So far away from land
These voices in my head I cannot stand
Do I dare to swim away
and face my fears some other day
I shiver in the cold
Your hand I wish to hold
As tears fall down my face
I think of you and your sweet grace
My last thoughts are of you
And the sweet things you do
As I close my eyes
A part of me slowly dies
I hear your voice so far away
Begging me to stay
Soon, I realize, this is all in my unconscious mind
Quickly I open my eyes
and leave my Nightmares behind.
I don’t think you have the slightest idea
of how much you hurt me.
How could you?
You don’t give a damn about me.
It seems that I am nothing to you.
So that is what I shall make of you.
You are no longer the one I love.
The only one
who could put a smile on my face.
No longer a friend,
no longer the last thought
in my head before I fall asleep;
or the first thought when I awake.
You are no longer
the one I dream of,
no longer the one
I wish to be with.
What you once were,
you can never be again.
Once, you were everything to me;
now, you are nothing.
Only a memory,
one which will thankfully fade.
Leaving me free
from your imprisonment.
Your power is gone,
and I am free.
So fade into the darkness,
where you belong.
you are the very
embodiment of my joy
where have you been?
where will you be?
will you leave?
You truly are a mystery
One far too dangerous for me
Are you the one in my dreams?
Where have you been?
Where will you be?
Will you leave?
Will you?
I close my eyes
and dream of
slitting your throat
cutting you up into
tiny little pieces
finding ecstasy
in your untimely demise
I quench my thirst
by drinking your blood.
As your eyes roll back
into their sockets
I REJOICE
Finding bliss in every cut
every stab
Every cry
that bellows from your lips
IS MUSIC TO MY EARS
Your pain is
my happiness
as mine was once yours
A smile appears
upon my face
as I rip your heart out
To tear you apart
bare your soul
So I can send it
straight to hell
where we can spend
eternity together
Destroying each other
is our best attribute
WHO NEEDS LOVE, WHEN YOU HAVE PAIN
Sharp Pain
Deep sorrow
Great anger
No Happiness
No Trust
No love
No hope
Darkness
and then Light
No future
No time to waste
Now or never
Counting down the time
Until I Die
The emerald eyes
of a serpent
glows in the darkness
As it slowly surrounds me
squeezing me tightly
Filled with fear,
losing air
I panic
wanting to escape
the pressure
of which I can endure
no longer
Hoping someday
I will be free
From the emerald eye serpent
Hidden deep inside me
It tears through me
cuts, shreds
It rips me apart
It is a part of me
It runs through my veins
It has become my life source
Yet it is killing me slowly.
I’ve allowed it to take over
And I don’t think I can stop it.
It destroys
It has ruined me
and so it will ruin you
through me.
And only I will be left
to blame.
It is a tricky thing,
pain.
His eyes are like the night
Dark and mysterious
Frightening, yet beautiful.
His voice is like an earthquake
It moves me with it’s might
And crushes the world around me
It silences everything
Leaving behind
a since of fear.
His love is like an ocean
It surrounds me
It drowns me
Leaves me powerless
and defeated
Yet I beg for more.
you are the one that believed in me
you cast your eyes down
the depths of the darkest,
deepest hole
looked upon me as an equal
a soul
some one worth saving
you stretched out your hand
and told me to hold on
and so I did
I held on
looking up at you
amazed by the beauty
of love
of humanity
my body worn down
my mind a dizzy fury
but my heart
the shattered pieces
I felt them healing
you taught me how to love
how to care
how to heal
how to thrive
because of you
I am alive
reborn
you taught me
how to live with myself
with others
but not how to live
Without You
I lie motionless in darkness
ice cold
not a sound left to hear
not a shadow left to see
no sense of direction
no knowledge of a home
no memories to recall
no voice to speak
no one to care
no power to rise
no will to survive
falling falling falling
no wings to fly
no ground to land on
no sky to soar through
Nothing
No one
Empty
No reality to drift from
No dream to escape to
Alone,
and left behind.
America, you lovely witch
You cast spells to make me love you
Then curse me with your bitter words
Your black cauldron
filled with potent potions
is Your lovely land
some are deadly
some are not
some of them discriminate
some spread joy and love
America, you lovely sorceress
You declare and incantation
Which promises freedom and equality
Then send your little minions
to disperse abhor and sorrow
when your pernicious plot
begins to break me down
All I hear is your cackling
America, you lovely enchantress
Now I see your wicked ways.
Fear is vindictive
she is daring
she is bold
she is timid at times
she is dangerous at most
she gossips
she screams
Fear cries
she demands
she destroys
she wraps her hands
around your throat
she strangles you
she will kill you
if you let her
sweetly drown you
Fear creeps up behind you
she hides in the dark
her hair wild and everywhere
her nails are claws
They dig,
scrape,
scratch
Cut deep
Fear leaves you bleeding
alone and diminished
A cold hearted woman
She looks you in the eye
as you die.
you go
leaving behind
a hole
your voice
a diminishing sound
leaving behind
only a memory
your smile
sky breaking
your eyes
star sprinkled
you leave
and here I am
on this Grey day of tears
tears
running like dazzling rivers
you go
leaving behind
TEARS.
He wraps his arms around me
like a blanket
He follows me around
like a little shadow
His only happiness
derived from my sadness
He cuts through me
like a sharp rigid knife
My little friend of sorrow
He says his name is Pain
My heart welcomes him
As if he were the only thing
in the world
Perhaps he is.
I keep them in me
locked and sealed
never to come loose
Dangerous demons
Ferocious creatures
Some are sweet
nice and beautiful
But most of them attack
Sink their vicious teeth
draw dark blood
make you cry
want to die
So I keep them inside me
closed and shut
never will they resurface
too dangerous
I keep them by the thousands
so many of them
Though they fill me,
I feel empty
I wish to forget them
But that would be too dangerous
they creep out and bite
tear, rip, shred
I must remember.
Remember to keep them inside
little pieces of darkness that they are.